In the life of Jake

So. I know its been a while but so what. I have a big question for everyone out there. How many friends do you have? Not acquantances, or people you kinda know. I mean someone who you hang out with at least four time a week and enjoy it. And you dont make excuses not to see them. I mean your true, very true friends. The ones you would enturst your life to. I can count mine on one hand. And that sucks. The rest of you should feel lucky if you think you have many more. Then atleast you know if one moves away or you get into a fight with one that you have back ups. God i wish i had that luxury.

Current Mood: lonely

selfish
Ok i am putting this one out there for everyone. It has come to my attention that everyone isnt as selfless as myself and others i truly have respect for. I have noticed that everyone operates under there own selfish needs. Everyone out there is out for number one. everyone talks about others behind there backs and whispers when they dont think they are paying attention. I am a big boy, i can handle having a conversation with someone if they think i have wronged them. If i have not then i would appriciate if you do not speak poorly of me to your friend, or boyfriend or girlfriend, and i believe that a lot of other people would appreciate the same thing. Dont be so damn selfcentered. Jesus there are other people in this world with bigger problems then not having a party to go to tonight, or not knowing where their not hook-up or booze is coming from. Just show a little respect and realize the world doesnt revolve around you(sorry to burst your bubble). Good night.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Photograph-nickleback

The greatest pain stems from the best feeling, love. Nobody in my life has the ability to hurt me if i dont put my feelings out there. But with her it feels like my feelings are in a safe deposit box. But once in a while someone breaks into the bank and breaks into my box and dumps the contents on the floor and kicks them around, maybe picks one up and wipes her ass with it. Essentially it hurts, it hurts a lot. I am not sure what the big message is her, dont put yourself out there and you wont get hurt? Love sucks, deal? I dont know maybe someone can tell me. I dont wanna go my whole life like this.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: aerosmith- i dont wanna miss a thing

Life
Life goes on i guess. 6 months with my lovely erica. cant say i regret one thing about our relationship. but now what? have i reached the end of my story? am i already at the happily ever after? does this so called god have a curve ball for me? if so what will it be? i suppose i shouldnt complain. i got the girl. i have my health (besides theses damn alergies). My friends are all being pretty cool. i have been having some weird feelings about a few people but we will leave that alone for now. I just hope everyone out there shows me the respect i show them. be honest, please be brutally honest with me. i can take it. if you have any questions please ask me. i am more than willing to share an answer with you. so remember respect eachother and yourselves everybody. goodnight.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: The Killers- Mr. Brightside

Sorry
I must apoligize to all my adoring fans for not updating my journal for what two months. i am sure everyone is wondering what i have been doing. well, i have been logging about 50 hours everyweek and not doing anything of interest, so sorry to disapoint. I went to the beach a few times and got a nice tan going. so far valeting at TI i have driven a camero, firebird, charger, corvettes, mustangs, bmw's, escalades, jaguars, infiniti's, mitsu evo VII, ect ect. ya pretty sweet. oh ya and i almost forgot the latest car checked off the list, the audi quatro TT. mmm turbo charger, (tounge hangs out of mouth, drewl flows down face). needless to say i am enjoying my new job, the old one... not so much. i have to work with all the old crabby metopause grandmas that have worked there for 30 years. blah, no fun.i am hoping i can move into my winona house august 1st. at least thats the plan. we will see how it goes. well there it is for all a y'all. thats what you have missed out of my life. i will try to post more often. stay tuned for updates.

Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: My own worst enemy-lit

Home...
So i have been home for a while. So far nothing special. I went to perkins with bryan last night. had some pie. nothing special. nice to see him but it isnt the same without the rest of the guys. I have worked four days in a row the four days i have been back. i have applied and gotten a second job, as if i needed more to deal with. i have been talking to my love and i have decided this fucking sucks. 33 more fucking days. then i may be reunited with my love. i cant wait for june. hopefully june 1st i will be moving some of my crap down to our house cause my room cant take any more crap. cant wait to see my girls down in winona, oh and jaron.

another day
Guess what everyone... its 4:20. Woopty fricken doo... none of you stoners out there even know what the hell you are celebrating. Its Hitlers birthday. Thats what you are getting high to. To celebrate the birthday of a man who unemotionally killed people. A phycopathic, hypocritical,, moron/ genious. The only props i will ever give to hitler is he started out the war better then anyone else. He made the mistake of going into russia in the winter (duh ever heard of nepolean)? He made the mistake of provocting the usa. Only the most capable army in the world. and he alingned himself with fucking i-tis. the damn italians and the japs. come on find better allies. There's the history lesson for the night. I am done. Peace out all.

Done
Is it ok to keep secrets from your friends? This is a question that has been plaguing me for some time now. “But it’s a surprise.” I don’t like to hear this. How do I know this is the truth? You might just think I will forget about it with some time. I hope you don’t think this cause I remember a lot. I might not remember specific incidences, but the point will be made in my mind. Call me paranoid but I guess I am one of those crazy people who don’t like it when people talk about me behind my back. I know its crazy but I can’t help it, it just bothers me. I am starting to understand better what one of my best friends meant when he talked to me about respect. I thought he meant it in a different way but now I understand he meant it as in respect as another human. Respecting his wishes, not talking bout him when he’s not around, and keeping his wishes in mind when I take an action. However, he also has to respect that I need to live my life how I would like. But, it is entirely possible for us to both get our ways. I think we have moved past our problems and we are back on our way as close friends. Its nice having someone you can tell anything to. We all need our outlets to vent on. I just want anyone out there who might read this to know, I am here to be vented on. I enjoy it when my friends come to me to tell me things. It makes me feel good to make others feel good. Call me crazy, again, but my motives aren’t completely selfish. In the wise words of Jerry Springer “Take care of yourself and each other. Goodnight everybody.”

Current Mood: Grrrr
Current Music: Get Back- Ludacris

Hmmm...
Another pretty ordinary day. I kinda missed my classes today, cause someone doesnt know how to use an alarm clock. But thats okay, I will make it all up. I got to have lunch with a beautiful girl. I hung out with my boys. Played a little S vs R. Then I had softball practice. Ya thats right me jake on a softball team. I will be getting some excercise afterall. I went back home after being driven around by nova and being assulted by sprinkles. But thats ok its all in good fun. The Twins won, woot woot.

Plain
Its been pretty dull lately, but dont get me wrong I'm not complaining. I have my girl, I have my car, and I got the love of friends and family. Things are pretty good right now. I am going to be playing softball with some friends for the next few weeks which should keep me in shape, god knows i wont do it on my own. It was so beautiful today i wanted to go roller blading but was to lazy and just played infantry for a while, thanks matt. Oh well i will just get pissed again and stop playing. I hope tomorrow is as beautiful as today was... peace out all.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Usher- My boo

Home
Well now I am home. I went to Toms Appt. the other night and dan made us slimers. mmm ( vodka, oj, sprite,) quinn got drunk, man that was funny. Dan was well dan enough said. then we all went to my house and watched the fast and the furious, sweet movie. yesterday was pretty boring, i actually played halo 2 online... hey i am not one of those guys i havent played in a couple months. then we went to perkins and got to see mal, linds, liz, and Mr Kirsh. This morning i got to work yay fun stuff, it was insanely busy, dumb bball teams. And i get to talk to my baby on the phone, lucky lil her in the Virgin Islands, with her burnt ass and bruised knee, sorry hun, dont get another hang over. Stay on the ark with me babe. cant wait to see you. I am suppose to head over to matts place tonight... fun stuff... we will see how that goes.

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: The boys are back in town- Thin Lizzy

Lifedate
Here you go Nova i will write in my journal. I am sitting here in class thinking wow... this guy is so boring. I cant believe i keep coming to this god forsaken class. I went to wal-mart yesterday with Nova, Sprinkles and ashley, and i saw a green carnation and it made me think of my lil sweety, erica(because she is irish and has been wearing green for the past week). So ofcourse i had to buy it for my lil baby. i also bought a camera for during spring break... who knows what will end up on it... i proly wont remember so it will fill in the blanks. I spent my last night with my girl last night for a couple weeks. its gonna be really weird sleeping without her next to me. I guess i will just have to get used to it though cause lil miss erica will be having fun in the virgin islands while i am here in minnesota with this damn snow. honestly snow... its march, come on! enough is enough let winter go, its spring time now. Its time for girl in skirts and tank tops, its time to go out and play football and baseball... let me live god just let me live. well i wish everyone a great spring break and remember its not what you remember its not how drunk you get its the fun you have on the way to getting drunk... its a shorter road for some of us right nova...

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Sweet Child O Mine- Guns and Roses

Boring
Everything has been pretty calm lately. I think my life is finally settling down. I have my girl and my friends and family. Spring break is just around the corner and then i get to see all my friends from home, yes! I miss my bro's from home, dan quinn, tom, bryan, joe, maybe even little. Things look good for next year too. The troublesome two and jaron and yours truly have all signed the lease and are ready to get our home next year. Now that my social life is straightened out i can focus on my academic life again.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: n dey say- nelly

All is well
Well, my life is back to being kinda boring. But, it is boring in a good way. Next year is almost all set up, I have a great girl by my side, my friends are still with me, there is always a little comedy around,(thanks brent and jaron) and spring break is almost here. I get to go party it up in good old h-town, woot woot. I hope the rest of you get to do something more exciting. Oh well life is good, lets keep it this way okay.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: 50 cent- disco inferno

Butt out
I have had enough of people butting into my life. Look people even if my best interests are in your mind when you do or say something it doesnt matter to me. You are butting in. Unless it affects you directly it isnt your business. Let me fall down and make my mistakes, i will learn more and you wont be in any trouble with me. This is my life and i will live it how i want. Dont tell me how to act or what to do. Its my choice not yours.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Ludacris- Get Back

Yippie
What a day yesterday. I woke up looking at one beautiful woman and some how pulled myself out of the bed and managed to put my shoes on and get out the door. I went back to my room and got ready for the day that was coming. having forgotten i was to give a speech i never wrote one. Luckily for me i just gave a speech in my speech class which was somewhat related to this class. So ofcourse i regave my speech. He bought it perfectly. Then i went and ate with PH and his friend from school back home. kinda crappy lunch, but oh well things are really starting to look good around here. Me and my posse went to look at a few more houses and we found "the one". It was pretty much perfect. all we need to do is find another roomie. then we went to eat at the smaug and celebrate. we all hit up the pizza hut. i some how managed to get soy nuts down my shirt. but when we got back to tau i opened up a can of snow fight whoop a$$ on those lil ladies. i also had back up from ph and kelvin. Ya they got their fine lil a$$es beat ;) Later that night the boys came over and some of our girls to watch wrestling, but it was more of interactive wrestling watching. Ya my beautiful bed became a ring and the later became a spring board for my beautiful frog splash. We have picture that will be coming later from allison. Then i went back over to ericas room to start the cycle over again. Man its a beautiful cycle. Thing are looking much better.

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Lovers and Friends- Usher, lil Jon, Ludacris

720
Well, if you read my last entry you would know that my former roommate was very angry at me. The summary of our convo from friday night was as follows "F*** You A** Hole." Ya suprised me too. The following night he messaged me again. This one was much nicer. He said he wanted to talk when he came back from home. So i didnt have a problem with that. So last night i went to his new room and sat down. He explained he now knew he was out of line due to a long talk with his father. Oh a special shout out to kelv's dad, Thank you much. So i guess we are cool again, and i am very happy with this. loosing a best friend is a ad thing cause they are suppose to be the top of the bunch, so what will the rest of your friends do. I think everything is finally going start going back to normal in the Tau 2 East. Next up to bat, Maria 3rd.

Current Mood: optimistic

360
Wow talk about a 360. My so called best friend just decided last night that he wanted nothing to do with me. He sat there and acted all chummy then for no apparent reason just turns his back on me. I dont know how someone can just walk away from a friendship saying he needs more respect. What does respect have to do with friendship? Why would you say F*** you A** hole cause you dont feel like you are respected? You still wont be getting respect if you dont have your bestfriend to give it to you. So there is now an opening for a best friend position. If you would like to apply please leave a message.

Current Mood: indescribable

WTF mate...
Do you ever feel like your life is a movie? Do you feel like you are living in a movie. I hate it when i have experiences and then compare them to scenes in a movie. Especially when the word awkward is involved. Lets just leave this at american pie hits real close to home. No super glue involved thank god. Wow how could life get more awkward? tell me how could it? Guess I have to just roll with the punches, huh. Well I sure hope i handle this better than Jim. But I dont have to have a very awkward talk with my Dad. Thank god for that too.

Current Mood: surprised

Two faces
I hate it when someone has a problem with something I do or say but they dont tell me. They would rather just go talk about me behind my back. I hate when they dont have the respect for me to just say what the heck they are thinking. So to everyone who sits there and acts like you are someones friend, just to turn around and talk about them... you are a horrible person.

Current Mood: angry

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